forget your trouble, come on get happy.

I used to hate THE IVY.

I used to like THE WOLSELEY.

NOW its the other way round.

wonder why its so hard to get into the ivy,its like getting a table at balzac or pastis.

with the ivy, you could get a nice shephereds pie, english food, a good roast beef.

and a FUCKING TASTIC MALLARD!

the service is excellent. and it is really worth paying.the service is always on time.never too much, never too late.just nice.

its a bonus to see people that you know, but trust me , the ivy isnt really pretentious.

you could even wear sneakers.

and its very small.probably thats why its hard to get a table.and i love all the paintings.all of it.

i am getting very angry.yesterday.

taught i would go for more relax today.

but it is always get stress. probably thats why peter said about the stress of this job that will make you feel miserable.thats why michelle only stay here 3 days a week.

which is quite true.

i restrain myself to be more relax.

but you always get customers like a cunt.rude, ignorant bastard.

italian cunts, parisian cunts,americunts are the worst.

they go like, do you take plastic? (card)

no, i take paper.

i hate them,.

italian more likeley stupid and ignorant cunts as they always think everything in london is cheap.

but the are times, where you dont really need to be so angry, but enjoy and make fun of it.

jp taught me to take things slow and relax.

say when you know they are poor and wanted some football,

just say 'whats your limit on your credit card? that is the price'

or if you have some small arabs kids asking about football, just make them laugh

and you can laugh too.

you know, be sarcastic, do their accents, make silly jokes, at least it kills times.

those people who come to the booth are cunts.treat them like one.

its not worth to be angry.

for what?

the sales arent good.

why? you cant force people to buy.

they are cunts.

make fun of them

jeez, i sound so cold.and cool at the same time too.

when youre being nice, they took advantage on you.when youre being cool, some of them like you, some of them are cunts.

when youre being cold, they left.they took rebbel.

to me, it doesnt matter how you treat them, cunts always be cunts. no matter what.

if they want them, they will get them.

the only thing that you would think about is yourself.

your heart might blurt out one day because its too much

heart attack, blood high pressure, too much stress.

how many ticket tout had died?

many.

I think, i should have moments.

for people who are really cunts, YOU GO CUNTS.

for people who are not so cunst, but still cunts, go a bit lighter.make silly jokes.be more cool than cold.

say if you know they are going to buy them, go cold.go harsh.

say if you know they are messers, go funny.

because you go cold, it will bring you happiness.

you go funny, it will bring you nothing.

thing is, when youre being cold, it bring you nothing.

so, just be you.

but seriously, cold really work.really work.

they are cunts.treat them like one.

enough said.

Paris Enchanter part two.

here's my big, dark secret

I am a person,where i am so easy to fall in love with. i could be anyone.and im not really fussy.

the elephant man could even be the one.it all depends how you approach me.seriously.

I didnt think that i would fall again with paris.

i taught everything had already ended.thats why i said fuck you paris and wimbledon.

but it seems like, last night wasnt the best, but wasnt too bad at all.

The wolseley was good.paris was not fuss.love walking, love the ambiance.

the bloomsbury hotel, was not too bad,

i was knackered.so we both slept.early.i guess. lol.

probably when you played well with hotel and restaurants, i may be materiaistic.

not that i am, but its how you played it.

Hotel russel used to play the same, but i didnt realised as soon as i were there during the day! it was fantastic!

at night it didnt look so much.

but the approach wasnt good.

so, paris call today.and i felt sexy.

i knew this isnt going anywhere, but i felt good.

very good indeed.

p/s : not to quote that whoreditch is good, but so far ive met woodside park and paris on the same place.so it is, really 'not too bad' hahahaha!

elephant man

I think that is the scariest costume for halloween ever!

Lady gaga sometimes does have her elephant man moment.

My question is have you ever wondered of having sex with makcik cleaner belakang skolah , but you wouldnt know its her , because she dressed as an elephant man!

the scariest thing is, makcik cleaner belakang skolah had been stalking you every day when you go to the canteen.

but you just , wouldnt imagined that she would go that far.would you?

p/s : scariest thing ever.BUT on the other enlighten mode, it is quite nice.youre quite a celebrity, there are people who stalk you, SCARY PEOPLE!

sex goddess in the making

how can you control things?

with pasta or megi goreng, you can eat it everyday, and then, BOOM!
yOU DONT WANT THEM .

with sex?

try do it everyday, it will become a routine.

and then comes just saturday and friday and sunday.

and then you get bored.

you want someone good.

and then you want to do it everyday to just have some company.

and then you want love more than sex.,

and then BOOM

it stop!

forever!

and then its like...no stress.

just

stop

and then it cum again.

and then its more like...

shhhh

Im like a girl sometimes, or maybe all the time.
When a girl broke up, they will eat a lot. Chocolates! When they are happy, they are too happy to eat anything.
When the business is busy, and I am happy, I will go home straight to bed.or fuck.
When the business is quiet, and I am unhappy, I will spend my money on cabs , and feels like some kind of glitterati going to the ivy.
Soo, I had Mallard.it was fantastic.and the most fabulous chocolate pudding ever!
Saw Gok wan.
And some famous architects.
Saw a nice black jaguar.
Sometimes, we will never know what happen behind close doors.behind the curtains, you always have the intuition, but never guess what might happen next.
And normally, youre intuition couldnt really bring it closer.
There are also times when movie is reality.where we normally think that movies are fantasies, and now fantasies can be reality.
Isnt life amazing?
I used to earn 2 pound an hour,holding a board in cold weather, couldnt even have the slightest think of going to the ivy.
I need to get hi and just hi.i am hi.

Fuck the ivy.

Peter came around and gave me lots of his thoughts.about the business, clive and everyone.

He is like own THE WEST END.BEEN in this game long enough.

some of his thoughts were good, some of them were ugly.

I like it when he said something about know what you want, play the game for fun.no stress.

I think i want to be clive.im no drug addict, but i am no educated either.

and i want to have this life. maybe better day by day.but im not stressing out.and i do have fun.i do have a lifetoo.

Im no broken hearted.

I dont want to see you.

I dont want to wake up at 6 am in the morning, naked with my big white collar shirt on , holding an espresso.

I dont want to get in a cab at 7 am like a prostitute in primrose Hill , feeling like kate moss after drug session.

I dont want to just have sex, I want to make love.

Im 21, I know Im young.

But im not tired, I am EXHAUSTED, KNACKERED of all these games.

im tired playing games.

it was fun.it used to be fun.

but its not taking you, me or us anywhere.

I dont want to play games because i dont know the rules.

I need to know what i am doing, and i want you to know what i want.

Thank you.

spots.

kalau perempuan boleh pakai baju lelaki kolar putih and nampak sexy dgn pegang cup of coffee,

I like to wear kain pelikat tok abah dgn care berkemban bile tidor.

why?

sebab dpt angin yg banyak.sbb ringan,

kenapa tutup bahagian atas?

sebab i am not comfortable with my top body.but i am very comfortable with my lower body.

i have a very nice legs.and i love my legs.

its like a footballer.but i am a kaki bangku.

but i am getting better, and feel good when im naked too.also there are moments when i feel ugly.

anyway, someone spotted my spots on my back which is why im not comfortable with my top.

and someone said 'are these spots because of clive? ' poor you.'

Membidas

Sandy came to me yesterday : annuar, if im going to close this shop, im going to work with you.for clive.and im going to cry.what am i going to give my wife and kids eat? and my wife is sick.

This is why , you dont need to worry.because youre alone.you eat,you dont eat, you dont need to worry about others.it is just you.

and i say: let me share with you something, mr sandy.

i have a friend, name Arcadia who is in london, trying to do the same thing as what i am doing.being independent.building up a new life in london.

I get it.so many people wants a life in london.a good life.

when i pack my bag, all ive got was just a back pack, and a hand luggage, and some lousy certificate which i knew it wouldnt matter here, in london.

and i knew from the moment i arrived, my life will be shit.nothing good.

who on earth would hire a malaysian young guy who has got nothing to prove but thoughts in mind?

where? in a big company?

DREAM ON!

and i said to myself, i need a job,any job.not prostitution, just anything.even sweeping the floor.because i need to eat,

and live.


as ive got the 2 pound and hour holding a board in cold for 12 hours, i accepted it.alhamdulillah.

and all good thing may come soon, hopefully, inshaallah.

so, when i was being a slave, i take it, and accepted it too.

arcadia is not happy working in an ice cream shop.and he s in london for 2 months!

i would be so grateful if im in his place right now.

HERE is the difference.

arcadia come to london with a dream of life will be like a bed of roses.

life is going to be like a fantasy.

here is my school, here is my work, here is where i live.

all near.

but the reality is, the opposite.OF COURSE!

and he is not happy.

i said to him, you expected too much.

i expected shit, in fact, i never expected anything! because ive got nothing! nothing!

i work in leicester square, holding a board for 2 pound, is like 45 mins journey from barking!

and in cold.

you work in a restaurant!

colin said to me, youre different annuar.not everyone is like you.you come from a rich family.arcadia come from a poor family.

thats when youre wrong.where ever you comes from doesnt matter.

i clean my room literally everyday.all by myself.i hate it when my maid cleaning it because i want to clean it by myself.

abah will always knock and shout on the door on saturday morning for me and acap to clean the pond.as we both hated it.and now im missing it.

i have to go to the bank, drycleaners, etc.

ITS HOW youve been brought up.

thats the reason why.

if youre saying that i come from a rich family, why is my brother is shit? and from the same family? because we are not the same.even from the same family.its how youve been brought up.

this arcadia, how i figured is, yes he came from a poor family, perhaps, he lives up to the family, and taught 'right, im going to go off now.hopefully london is going to be better for me!'

so, sandy

my question is , do you think that you are rich, poor or comfortable?

he said: if i have this shop, and business like usual, i am rich.

if i close down, i am poor.

not even comfortable?

no, i am poor.

and why are you putting all this burden on yourself? where is srut? where is sam? where are your kids?

and i knew youre going to say 'they are too small'

and my answer is fuck off.

you should teach them the hard life.what real life is.they have to know daddy is not rich anymore.cut down on everything.let they work or something.fucking hell sandy.you have a family.work it together.youre not alone.


p/s : ITS HOW YOU BROUGHT UP YOUR KIDS.

are you THE CAT?

washing up watching nur kasih over sex and the city is very ironic.

watching james earls jones on the stage on the second row this saturday's matinee followed by lunch at the capital hotel!

certainly, cant cant wait!

P/S : because i am definitely the HOT TIN ROOF.